Welp here we go again.
I never thought I’d feel like this again. That heart racing, stomach knotting feeling. Having a reason to actually have a phone to text someone 24/7. Having someone want to be with you so bad willing to give up everything just to be with them. The butterflies I haven’t got since I was 14 when I look at him. When I’m laying with him I don’t want to leave. The silliness and jokes. Screaming singing in the car laughing like little kids. The invincible feel that makes you forget all that’s going on around you. This might sound cliche but this is my honest feelings i usually roll my eyes at posts like this but I just needed to let it out and no better place than here. They say on a verge a person actually falls in love twice in their life time. And I think I’m not positive but I might be falling in love for the second time. Emotions are so weird and sometimes hard to decipher the difference of falling in love with a person or falling in love with the concept of the person. It happens often to people who are together a long time. You care about the person but become miserable you are in love with the person for all the “cute” things you made him do or just the concept of having someone to always be there for you. That’s when it becomes selfish we have expectations for the person and somehow forget that’s an actual person. I don’t know if I’m making any sense but I had the erg to write. The first time I fell in love, I was in love with having a relationship. Now I feel like I’m falling in love with the person. His smile, humor, attitude, family, how he genuinely wants to be with me, his laugh, his soul. I’m a strong believer in soul ties and just something with him feels so right. Like it’s where I’m suppose to be. I feel at peace. But also I’m terrified of this feeling I don’t want to get it wrong and read my emotions wrong. But for the first time in a long time something is right.